I didn’t grow up dreaming about fatherhood.
Definitely not the single-dad version. At 24, I still burned frozen pizza half the time and thought folding laundry meant just tossing it on the couch. But life has a way of handing you the unexpected with no manual.
His mom and I tried. We really did. But things fell apart faster than we could patch them. And when she left—she left for real. Said she needed space. Said she wasn’t ready. And suddenly, there I was with a toddler who only wanted cereal, Paw Patrol, and to be held 24/7.
I was terrified.
First few weeks, I kept thinking, They should’ve sent someone more qualified. I googled everything. I cried after he went to bed more times than I’ll ever admit. But every morning, he’d stretch his arms out to me with that scrunchy little grin, and somehow, we kept going.
There were moments when I felt like I was barely keeping it together. My apartment was a mess, there was cereal stuck to the kitchen floor, and I could barely get out of bed without tripping over toys. But every time I looked at him, it reminded me that I couldn’t afford to fall apart. I had to figure it out.
So I did what I could. I reached out to my mom—who thankfully lived nearby—and she helped when she could. She’d take him for a few hours so I could catch up on sleep or work, and sometimes, she’d even just sit with me while I cried about how overwhelmed I felt. It was hard, but I wasn’t alone.
Then there was daycare. It was a blessing and a curse. I hated dropping him off every morning, and I hated the guilty feeling that always followed. But I needed to work. I needed to be able to pay rent and put food on the table. And, honestly, I knew he needed it. He needed the socialization, the routine, the opportunities I couldn’t give him on my own.
One evening, after an especially rough day—where he threw a tantrum because I couldn’t find his favorite dinosaur—I was sitting on the couch, exhausted, scrolling through my phone. That’s when I saw it.
A post on a local parenting forum: “Single dad? Looking for advice? Let’s chat.”
I clicked on it.
It was a group of single parents, mostly dads, offering advice and support. And for the first time since this all started, I felt like I wasn’t alone in the chaos. There were dads just like me—fumbling through their days, trying to be everything their kids needed, and yet still figuring it all out. They shared stories of sleepless nights, daycare drama, and moments of pure joy that made it all worth it.
I joined the group. I posted about my struggles, my fears, and the fact that I honestly had no idea what I was doing. It was the most vulnerable thing I’d ever done. I expected some sympathy, maybe a little bit of advice.
What I got was something I didn’t expect at all.
It was the support I didn’t know I needed. Other dads commented, telling me their stories, sharing their failures and their triumphs. Some even offered to meet up in person for coffee, just to talk. It wasn’t perfect, but for the first time, I didn’t feel like I was completely drowning in this new life.
One of the dads, Luke, messaged me directly. He had two kids, and he had been raising them on his own for years. He understood the struggle. He told me that his first year as a single dad was the hardest thing he’d ever done, but he promised it would get easier.
I didn’t really believe him at the time. But over the next few months, I kept talking to him, and his advice slowly started to make sense.
He told me the importance of routines. He told me that kids thrive on consistency. He told me that even though it felt like everything was falling apart, it was okay to not have it all figured out. It was okay to make mistakes, as long as I kept trying.
I also started to feel something I hadn’t allowed myself to feel before: hope.
A year passed. It wasn’t easy, but we were making it. I still made mistakes. I still burned frozen pizza and missed some work deadlines. But I was figuring it out. I became better at balancing my work schedule and daycare, and I learned to embrace the mess that came with parenthood.
But then came a new challenge I didn’t expect: his mom came back into the picture.
She showed up one afternoon, a little less than a year after she’d left, and asked if she could see him. I didn’t know what to feel. Anger? Confusion? I didn’t even know if I could trust her after everything that had happened.
But I knew one thing: I wasn’t going to shut her out. My son deserved to know his mom, even if it meant facing all the difficult emotions that came with it.
We agreed to meet up at the park one weekend. I could feel the tension between us, but we made it work for him. I watched as they reconnected. She held him, and he smiled up at her, clearly not remembering the absence. It was bittersweet. I was grateful he had her in his life again, but I couldn’t ignore the hurt I felt from everything she had put him—and me—through.
Over time, they began seeing each other more often. There were awkward moments, sure, and more than a few emotional conversations, but I let it happen. I had to. I wasn’t going to keep him from his mom if that’s what he needed.
But as much as I tried to let go of the anger, it was still there, bubbling under the surface. I had poured my heart and soul into being a good dad, and now, she was back, stepping into the role she had abandoned so easily.
One day, a few months after they had started seeing each other, I got a call. It was from her.
“Hey, I wanted to talk,” she said, her voice hesitant. “I’ve been thinking a lot about everything. About him. About you. And I just… I think I made a huge mistake.”
I had no idea where this conversation was going. But I listened.
“I’ve been seeing a counselor,” she continued. “And I know I messed up. I wasn’t ready to be a mom. I didn’t know how to handle it. But I want to try again. Not just with him, but with you, too.”
The words hit me like a freight train. My first instinct was to shut it down. To tell her no. But then I thought about everything that had happened—the year of loneliness, of mistakes, of learning. And something inside me shifted.
“You’re not just stepping back into his life,” I said quietly. “You’re stepping back into mine, too. And I’m not sure I’m ready for that.”
She was quiet for a long moment before she spoke again. “I get it. I don’t expect things to just go back to how they were. But I want to try. I know I messed up, but I’m here now. And if you’ll let me, I want to be a part of his life. And maybe even yours.”
The conversation didn’t end with a happy ending or a perfect resolution. It took time—months, actually. But we slowly worked our way back into some form of co-parenting. There were bumps along the way, but we kept trying. It wasn’t a fairy tale, and it wasn’t easy, but we were doing it—for our son.
And through it all, I learned the most important lesson I never expected to learn: that forgiveness isn’t just for the person who hurt you. It’s for you, too. It’s about letting go of the weight of anger and resentment, even when it feels impossible.
So, I forgave her. I forgave myself. And we moved forward.
Now, I can honestly say I’m a better dad than I ever thought I’d be at 24. I’ve found a strength in myself I never knew existed. And even though it’s still not perfect, I’m proud of how far we’ve come.
If you’re struggling, whether as a single parent or in any situation that feels overwhelming, know that you’re not alone. Things will get messy. Things will feel impossible. But if you keep going, if you keep showing up every single day, you’ll find a way through it.
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