We took this photo the summer before everything changed.
It was one of those low-key afternoons—too hot for anything productive, too peaceful to care. She was in her favorite lawn chair, the blue one we always teased her about because it squeaked every time she shifted. I sat next to her, holding her arm like I’d done a thousand times as a kid, back when I thought nothing bad could ever happen if I just stayed close enough.
She smiled that day like she had all the time in the world.
But by fall, she couldn’t walk up the porch steps without losing her breath. By winter, she could barely speak in full sentences.
We didn’t know what was happening at first. At least, I didn’t. I just assumed it was age catching up with her—after all, she had always been the strong one, the one who ran the show in our family. But then came the doctor’s visits, the endless tests, and eventually, the diagnosis: cancer. It was a blow that left us all reeling, but Mom, ever the optimist, brushed it off like it was just another challenge to overcome. “We’ll get through this,” she said, squeezing my hand like she always had when things seemed tough.
I wanted to believe her, I really did. But as the months wore on, the cancer took hold, slowly but surely. Mom’s bright eyes started to dull, her skin pale, her once-lively spirit dimming little by little. But she kept fighting. Even in her last days, she was still fighting, still trying to make everyone around her feel like everything was fine.
And I let her. I didn’t want to face the truth, didn’t want to believe that I might lose her. It felt like I would be losing everything—the one person who had always been there for me, the one who knew me better than anyone else.
The last few weeks were a blur. I stayed by her side as much as I could, but work and life had a way of pulling me away. I regret that now. I should have been there more, should have dropped everything just to sit with her, to listen to her stories, to remind her of how much she meant to me.
I was there when it happened, though. The day she passed. I held her hand, just like I had when I was little. And as she drifted away, the last words she ever spoke to me were, “You’re going to be okay. You’re stronger than you think. Don’t forget that.”
At the time, I couldn’t grasp the full weight of what she was trying to say. I was numb, my heart broken into pieces, and all I could think about was how much I wished I could turn back time, that I could have one more day with her, one more chance to tell her how much I loved her.
But now, months later, I keep hearing those words. “You’re going to be okay. You’re stronger than you think.” They play in my head like a broken record, repeating over and over again, sometimes when I least expect it. I hear them in the quiet moments when I’m trying to fall asleep, or when I’m facing a challenge I don’t know how to deal with.
At first, it was comforting. It felt like she was still with me, guiding me, giving me the strength I needed to face the world without her. But as time went on, I started to wonder if I was hearing her voice because I needed to hear it, or because I was too scared to let go.
One day, it all came to a head. I was at work, overwhelmed by deadlines and the constant pressure to perform, when I found myself frozen in front of my computer screen, unable to do anything. I couldn’t focus, couldn’t find the energy to keep pushing through the endless tasks that piled up. I wanted to call in sick, just to escape for a day, to take a breath and process everything.
That’s when I heard her voice again—clearer this time, almost as if she were standing right behind me.
“You’re stronger than you think.”
I stood up, feeling a jolt of energy rush through me. It wasn’t the voice of someone lost to the past—it was a reminder, a nudge from within myself. I wasn’t just hearing her words because I missed her. I was hearing them because I needed to remind myself that I had everything inside of me to keep going.
And so, I did. I took a deep breath, cleared my mind, and got to work. It wasn’t easy, but I kept pushing forward, knowing that my mom had always believed in me—even when I didn’t believe in myself.
Months passed, and I kept hearing her voice in my head, especially on the hard days. The voice became a steady companion, a quiet source of strength that reminded me to keep moving, to keep growing. It wasn’t just a voice from the past—it was a part of me now, woven into the fabric of who I was becoming.
Then, a strange thing happened. A year after her death, I found myself on the verge of making a major decision—something that could change the direction of my life. I had been offered a job in another city, a promotion that would push me further in my career, but also require me to leave behind everything I knew.
I hesitated. I doubted myself, as I always did when it came to big decisions. But as I stood at the crossroads, the voice came again.
“You’re going to be okay.”
This time, it wasn’t just about getting through the day-to-day challenges. It was about trusting myself, trusting my ability to make decisions that would shape my future. It was about taking the leap, even when it felt scary.
And so, I accepted the job. I packed up my life, left behind the place I’d called home for so long, and started fresh. It wasn’t easy, but it felt right. And as I settled into my new routine, I realized something important: my mom had been right. I was stronger than I thought.
But the karmic twist in this story came in a way I never expected. As I began to flourish in my new job, I received an email from an old acquaintance, someone I hadn’t spoken to in years. It was a colleague from my previous job, someone who had always seemed to have it all together.
She told me that she had been struggling with her own battles—both professionally and personally—and that my decision to take the leap had inspired her to do the same. She had always been too scared to take risks, to leave behind what was comfortable. But watching me take that first step gave her the courage to finally pursue her own dreams, no matter how daunting they seemed.
It was a humbling moment. In my quest to find my own strength, I had unknowingly become a source of inspiration for someone else. And in that moment, I realized that my mom’s voice wasn’t just about me. It was about passing on that strength, that belief, to others.
The real reward wasn’t just the success I found in my career or the new life I built. It was the way I was able to pay it forward, to be the kind of person my mom had always believed I could be—someone who lifted others up, even when I didn’t realize I was doing it.
So, if you’re reading this and feeling unsure about the future, take a moment to listen to the quiet voice inside you. It may not always be loud, but it’s there. You’re stronger than you think, and you’ve got everything you need to face whatever comes your way.
