I used to think I had a “tough love” kind of upbringing.
You know—nothing was ever quite good enough, but it was just how my family worked. Praise was rare. Emotions? Basically off-limits. If you cried, you were “soft.” If you asked for help, you were “lazy.”
I grew up thinking that was normal.
But after I married Lyra, things started to shift. Not all at once—more like a slow peeling back of layers I didn’t even know I had. She’d say things like, “Why does your mom act like you ruined her day every time you call?” or “Did you notice your dad completely ignored you in front of the kids?”
And at first, I’d defend it.
“That’s just how they are.”
“They’re old school.”
But then we had our third kid, and I saw how my parents treated him—like he was some kind of inconvenience.
They made comments about how he cried too much or how he needed to “toughen up.” I watched my parents, who had always been distant with me, now be distant with my own child. It was like a switch had flipped. Suddenly, their behavior toward him felt wrong, in a way I couldn’t ignore anymore.
Lyra saw it too. She would say, “He’s just a baby. Why do they talk to him like that?” Her frustration was palpable, but I was too stuck in my old patterns to fully absorb what she was saying.
The turning point came one evening when my son, Ben, had a tantrum. He was tired, hungry, and overwhelmed, but my parents didn’t show any compassion. Instead of comforting him, they chastised him for being “too emotional.” They told him to “stop crying” and “be a man.” I could feel my heart breaking as my son sobbed in my arms, and for the first time, something inside me clicked.
I looked at Lyra, and I saw the hurt in her eyes. She didn’t say anything, but I could tell she was struggling with how my parents treated our children.
Later that night, after everyone had left, I sat with Lyra, and we talked for hours.
“I can’t keep seeing them treat Ben like that,” she said quietly. “I don’t know how you’ve tolerated it all these years.”
That hit me harder than I expected. I thought I had been handling everything, that I was just doing what was expected of me. But Lyra had a point. I had been tolerating behavior that was unhealthy and hurtful. It wasn’t just affecting me—it was affecting my children, and I couldn’t keep letting it slide.
I started to look back on my own childhood more critically. My parents’ lack of emotional support, their constant criticism—it wasn’t “tough love.” It was neglect. They never taught me how to handle my emotions, and they certainly never gave me the tools to build a healthy relationship. It wasn’t just their way of parenting—it was a cycle of toxicity that I had unknowingly inherited.
But breaking that cycle wasn’t easy. I knew I had to have a conversation with my parents, but I was terrified. I had spent so many years avoiding conflict with them, accepting their distance as just “how things were.” How could I suddenly stand up to them after all this time?
But Lyra encouraged me. “You’re not asking for anything unreasonable,” she said. “You just want your parents to treat your kids with the same love and respect that they expect from you.”
With her support, I made the decision. I would talk to them, lay everything out, and tell them how I felt. I wasn’t sure how they would respond, but I knew I couldn’t let things continue the way they had.
A week later, we all gathered for dinner at their house. The moment felt tense, and I could tell Lyra was just as nervous as I was. I sat at the dinner table, trying to gather my thoughts, while my parents went on about the usual small talk—work, weather, the kids. But I couldn’t ignore what had been bothering me for months now.
“Mom, Dad,” I said, trying to keep my voice steady, “we need to talk.”
Both of them looked up, surprised. My father raised an eyebrow, but my mother’s face tightened, as if she already knew what was coming.
“We’ve noticed how you’ve been treating Ben,” I continued, “and it’s not okay. The way you talk to him when he cries, the way you dismiss his feelings—it’s not right. I know it’s how you were raised, but we’re trying to do things differently with our kids.”
My mom scoffed, “What’s wrong with teaching him to toughen up? You’re just coddling him.”
I could feel the anger rising in my chest, but I took a deep breath and kept going.
“It’s not about coddling him,” I said. “It’s about showing him love and support. We want him to know it’s okay to feel things. We don’t want him to grow up thinking emotions are something to hide or be ashamed of.”
There was a long silence as my parents exchanged glances. My father finally spoke, his voice cold and dismissive.
“You’ve changed, son. This is all nonsense. We raised you just fine, and look where you are now. Why do you think your kids need to be treated differently? They need to learn discipline, not be coddled.”
The words stung more than I cared to admit. I had spent my whole life trying to gain their approval, but now, as a father myself, I realized that their version of “discipline” was just another way of hiding their own inability to show affection.
“I’m not saying you didn’t do your best,” I said, keeping my voice calm. “But I need to be honest with you. Your way of parenting didn’t work for me, and it’s not working for our kids. We want to raise them with love, understanding, and patience. If you can’t support that, I’m not sure how we can continue to spend time together.”
It was like a bomb had gone off in the room. My mom’s face turned bright red, and my father’s expression hardened into something I couldn’t quite read. For a moment, I thought maybe I had gone too far. But then, the twist came.
“You don’t understand, do you?” My dad’s voice was quieter now, almost somber. “We didn’t know how to show love because we never received it ourselves.”
The words caught me off guard. My father, who had always been so rigid and unyielding, was finally being vulnerable. He continued, his voice breaking slightly.
“We grew up in a world where emotions weren’t allowed. We thought it was normal to shut them down, to keep our feelings hidden. It wasn’t until much later in life that we realized we were never taught how to love properly. And by then, it was too late.”
I sat there, stunned, as he continued.
“I didn’t know how to show you love. I thought I was doing the right thing by pushing you to be strong, by toughening you up. But now, seeing how you’ve raised your own kids, I realize how wrong I was. I’m sorry.”
The apology was something I never expected. It wasn’t perfect, and it didn’t fix everything, but it was a start. And for the first time in my life, I felt like my dad truly saw me—not just as his son, but as a father trying to do his best for his family.
My mom didn’t say anything for a long time. But eventually, she reached out and placed a hand on my arm.
“I’m sorry too,” she whispered. “I didn’t know how to be there for you, not in the way you needed. I’ve always thought I was helping, but I see now that I wasn’t.”
It wasn’t an easy conversation, and it didn’t fix everything overnight, but it was a turning point. The next few weeks were full of small changes—moments of kindness, attempts at understanding, and the slow rebuilding of a relationship that had been fractured for years.
What I learned from all of this was simple: sometimes, the people who hurt us the most are also the ones who are hurting the most. We don’t always get the answers we expect, but if we’re open to change, to growth, and to understanding, we can begin to heal together.
In the end, I realized that I didn’t need to hold on to the pain of the past. I didn’t need to let my parents’ mistakes define me. I could take the lessons, the healing, and move forward as a better father, a better partner, and a better son.
So, if you’re holding on to something—whether it’s pain, regret, or a grudge—maybe it’s time to let go. Sometimes, the hardest conversations bring the most healing. And with that healing comes a chance to create something better for yourself and for the ones you love.
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