People keep asking me what I want to do with whatever time I’ve got left. Some say I should travel. Others suggest writing letters or recording videos for her to watch when she’s older.
But the truth is, I don’t care about bucket lists. I just want to make sure she makes it.
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Her name’s Leni. She’s four, stubborn as a storm, and she has the same rare condition I was just diagnosed with—only we caught hers earlier. That’s the only thing giving me any peace right now.
Every appointment, I hold her tiny hand and smile like I’m not terrified. Every blood draw, every scan, every specialist visit—we do it together. Like some weird, heartbreaking daddy-daughter routine.
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And when she looks up at me with those big, trusting eyes, asking me why the doctors always poke her and why I’m always holding her hand, I just tell her the truth in the simplest way I know how.
“We’re going to make you better, sweetheart. And I’ll be here the whole time. Always.”
But, deep down, I don’t know if that’s the truth. I don’t know how much longer I’ve got. And it’s killing me that I can’t promise her more than just that.
I’ve spent my whole life being independent, doing things on my own terms. But now, every decision I make revolves around making sure Leni is going to be okay once I’m gone. I’ve put a plan in place—nothing fancy, just practical things. I’ve talked to her daycare teacher about the importance of keeping an eye on her. I’ve reached out to my sister, Rachel, the one person I trust more than anyone else, and made sure she knows how much I need her to step in if I’m not here to guide Leni through life. I know I can’t control what happens, but I can at least try to make sure Leni is surrounded by people who love her.
The hardest part, though, isn’t making sure Leni is taken care of—it’s the thought of her growing up without me. My heart breaks every time I think about the milestones I won’t be around to see. Her first day of school. Her first heartbreak. Her wedding day. I won’t be there to comfort her when she’s lost or to celebrate with her when she finds her way.
But there’s one thing I can do—one thing that’s been keeping me going through this whole nightmare—and that’s giving her the best shot at a future.
I’ve been saving up. Not for a house, not for anything extravagant, but for a college fund. I’ve been putting away every extra penny I can. I’ve made sure the bank accounts are set up, the trust is in place, and Rachel knows exactly where to find everything if anything happens to me. It’s not much, but it’s what I can do. And maybe, just maybe, it’ll be enough to help her build a life I won’t be there to see.
The doctors keep telling me I should rest more, that I need to take care of myself, but it’s hard to do that when every second feels precious. Every time I hold Leni’s tiny hand, I wonder how many more times I’ll get to do it. How many more days we’ll have together.
And then, one day, something happens that shakes everything I thought I knew about this disease.
I’m sitting in the waiting room of the hospital, the smell of antiseptic heavy in the air, when my phone buzzes. It’s Rachel. She never calls during my appointments, so I answer quickly, hoping everything’s okay.
“Hey, you good?” I ask.
“Yeah, yeah, everything’s fine,” she says, her voice unusually upbeat. “But I need you to check your email. Right now.”
“Why?” I ask, furrowing my brow. “What’s going on?”
“I’ll explain later, just check your email.”
I quickly pull up my inbox, scanning for a new message from her. It’s there, at the top, titled Important. I open it, and as I do, my heart skips a beat.
It’s a letter from the specialist—a geneticist who has been overseeing Leni’s treatment. In the letter, she explains that a new treatment has been discovered, one that could potentially reverse the condition Leni has. It’s experimental, still in the early stages, but the results so far have been promising. And it’s available now.
I read the letter three times, then look up at Leni, who is playing with a toy in the corner of the waiting room. Her innocence, her little laugh, her endless curiosity—everything about her makes me want to fight harder, to do whatever I can to make sure she grows up to see the world for all it is.
But there’s a catch. The treatment is risky. It’s not guaranteed to work, and even if it does, there are no promises about what the long-term effects might be. It could save her life, but it could also make things worse. I have no way of knowing what would happen. I don’t even know if she’d qualify for it—there are always waiting lists, always more red tape.
Still, my heart pounds as I consider the possibilities. I’ve spent so long preparing for a life without her, but here, in this moment, there’s a chance—just a chance—that things could be different.
I’ve been thinking about it for hours, going over the pros and cons in my head, when Rachel calls again. This time, she sounds more urgent.
“I need you to hear me,” she says. “You can’t just wait around, hoping things will fix themselves. You’ve done everything you can, but now you need to take action. You need to give Leni the best chance, even if it’s risky. She deserves it. You deserve it. Don’t hold back out of fear. We’ll handle everything. You’re not alone in this.”
And that’s when it hits me: I’ve been so focused on making sure Leni is okay once I’m gone that I’ve almost forgotten the most important thing of all—the fight. The fight to keep her alive, to keep her with me, to keep our family together.
I make the decision that night. I call the doctor, arrange a meeting for the next day. I’m doing this. I’m giving Leni the best shot, no matter what.
The next few months are a blur. The treatment is grueling, and there are moments when it seems like it might not work. Leni’s body reacts in ways we didn’t expect, and the doctors are unsure whether it’s a good sign or a bad one. There are days when she’s tired and sad, and I can’t help but wonder if I’m making the right choice.
But then, one day, Leni sits up in bed, her face brighter than it’s been in weeks.
“I feel better, Daddy,” she says, her voice full of hope. And for the first time in a long time, I feel like I’m not drowning in fear.
The treatment works. Slowly but surely, Leni gets better. She’s not completely cured, but she’s stronger, healthier, and most importantly—she’s here, with me.
In the months that follow, I’m able to witness her growing, laughing, playing, and thriving. The future I feared I would never see starts to unfold in front of me, and it’s more beautiful than I could have imagined.
But there’s more. The karmic twist in all of this is that the doctor who pioneered this treatment—the one who offered us the hope that saved Leni—is actually a distant cousin of Rachel’s, someone we never knew existed. When Rachel reached out to her family to help me, it turned out that this cousin had been researching this exact disease for years. Not only did Leni get the treatment she needed, but it also helped other children with the same rare condition. In a strange, roundabout way, the universe had connected all the dots.
It was a reminder that, sometimes, even in the darkest moments, there’s a hand waiting to pull us out of the shadows. Life doesn’t always go as planned, but when you hold on tight to hope, to love, and to those who truly care, you never know what might be just around the corner.
If you’ve ever faced the impossible, remember this: the fight is worth it. The love, the sacrifice, the choices we make—they all matter. Don’t give up on what’s worth fighting for.
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